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Why do people say one thing and then do the opposite?

A friend online posed this question:

My immediate thoughts were:

Usually because in a moment, they let the desires of their flesh and their pride and ego lead them to compromise their integrity with little regard for the consequences.

Especially if they have no firm foundation with regards to their values and beliefs to guide them, they might listen to their own heart on the matter, which can get people into all kinds of compromising situations.

And people learn to lie by watching those around them. Look at the examples of politicians, of media/news, of television shows, of social media posts where so many people are thinking only of their agenda, wants, feelings, opinions, etc — with no real interest in what is right or just our fair or reasonable.

So unless they see someone who is willing to admit, “I was wrong” and “I lied and that was wrong, and here’s what I’m going to do to try and make things right from what I’ve done that was wrong” — until they see that example (instead of people pointing out other’s lies and continuing to lie themselves) — what can we expect but for them to mimic the example we are giving them?

Yes, fearing God, and loving what is right, and turning away from what is bad is the best answer for a liar to become a source of truth.

But the concept of God is the most horrible lie to someone who only knows liars — they just see hypocrite religious teachers getting rich off of their followers when they hear “God” or “religion” mentioned, because they expect God to just be another liar and charleton (like what they know of themselves and of everyone else).

So we need to see the cost of being a liar ourselves (not just hope everyone else would be truthful, but we could still lie to gain an advantage).

This is necessary before we can even consider the value of genuine truth, of wisdom that does not change with the opinions of a culture or time, something truly pure, and holy and righteous without any hint of deceit — that is so unlike mere man.

And then, we might seek out this holy God to see if He is just a myth, or yet another lie.

His Word says that His promises are true and that He can not lie. Have we sought Him and tested to see if this is true?

Have we asked Him to teach us to be like Him so that we can turn from our lying ways?

We can’t control, demand, or expect others to not lie to us when it is convenient for them — if we still mitigate those “harmless little less” when it is convenient for us. So let’s focus on cleaning up our own house and sweeping it clean first — and if we can’t keep our own house clean by ourselves,  let’s ask someone stronger and more powerful and more truthful than ourselves for help.

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Compromise costs

Readings:

Genesis 16

Genesis 17

Genesis 18

Genesis 16:5 NLT
Then Sarai said to Abram, “This is all your fault! I put my servant into your arms, but now that she’s pregnant she treats me with contempt. The Lord will show who’s wrong—you or me!”

This is one of those,  “Bro, you CANNOT do that” kind of moments where us married guys would look at each other and shake our heads. It’s like when your wife says she’s “Fine” or says “You go right ahead and do that”. If the alarm bells aren’t going off in your head when your wife comes to you with this “grand idea” of hers,  have you even met a woman before? Even middle school boys can probably sniff this out as a trap,  right?

But compromise happens when we want something on our own time and not in God’s time. And with compromise,  there is always consequence that will steal from us more than it is worth. This is what “sin” is — it is compromise,  it is missing the mark. It isn’t some checkbox of rules we do or do not follow — sin is cheating ourselves out of what is best.

And we can come up with all kinds of self justification in the moment of challenge — but looking back, it’s easier to see our foolishness clearly. So how can we be better at 20/20 Now vision instead of 20/20 hindsight?

Listen and learn from wisdom,  and don’t insist on proving foolishness to yourself the hard way.

Matthew 13:12 NLT
To those who listen to my teaching, more understanding will be given, and they will have an abundance of knowledge. But for those who are not listening, even what little understanding they have will be taken away from them.

And we may look at this foolish decision by Abraham, but how many times have we not seen our own log?

How many times have we let someone lead us into a foolish decision because it just wasn’t worth the argument and because there was something in it for us?

We shouldn’t be so quick to judge Abraham here, because haven’t we been foolish and caved to peer pressure ourselves — to the enticement of what looks petty to the eyes, to the temptation of what might feel good to touch,  to the dangers of poison that might taste good on the tongue?

Lord,  help us to not only see the foolishness of others, to not only see our own foolishness in hindsight, but to see and understand our need for you to walk with us as our guide and our teacher. Teach us the value of walking with you uncompromising and upright. Amen.

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Doing Good to Evil People

Readings:

Genesis 34

Genesis 35

Matthew 12

Matthew 13

Psalms 10

In the heat of anger, the flesh cross out for “justice” but what it really wants is “vengeance”. And there is a high cost to vengeance, not just for us — but for all around us. Using vengeance against one person who has wronged us usually means significant collateral damage. We hurt more people than just the offender when we seek vengeance on our own,  and we create danger for us and those around us.

This is why the Lord tells us that vengeance is His. He is better at diverting actual justice and insuring full amends and compensation because He can turn what was meant for evil to good.

Romans 12:19-21 NLT
Dear friends, never take revenge. Leave that to the righteous anger of God. For the Scriptures say, “I will take revenge; I will pay them back,” says the Lord. Instead, “If your enemies are hungry, feed them. If they are thirsty, give them something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals of shame on their heads.” Don’t let evil conquer you, but conquer evil by doing good.

Genesis 50:19-21 NLT
But Joseph replied, “Don’t be afraid of me. Am I God, that I can punish you? You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people. No, don’t be afraid. I will continue to take care of you and your children.” So he reassured them by speaking kindly to them.

As Jesus tells us the parable of the seed in Matthew 13, we have to consider which type of person we are:

Matthew 13:11-12 NLT
He replied, “You are permitted to understand the secrets of the Kingdom of Heaven, but others are not. To those who listen to my teaching, more understanding will be given, and they will have an abundance of knowledge. But for those who are not listening, even what little understanding they have will be taken away from them.

And if we are someone who doesn’t yet have eyes to see our ears to hear,  Jesus gives us the recipe. 

Matthew 13:12 NLT
To those who listen to my teaching, more understanding will be given, and they will have an abundance of knowledge. But for those who are not listening, even what little understanding they have will be taken away from them.

Will we just hear this Word, or we listen?

Are we willing to listen, contemplate and try to understand?

Are we willing to wrestle with it when the Word teaches The Way that is narrow and uncomfortable to the desires of our flesh and humiliating to the foolishness of our ego?

If someone says,  “Do good to people who are evil to you” — our flesh and our ego will stand up to call them an idiot. But do we have another still quiet voice that wants us to listen and understand what is being taught?

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Drive away the buzzards

Readings:

Genesis 12

Genesis 13

Genesis 14

Genesis 15

Sometimes verses jump out at me, and the inclusion of the cultures here caught my attention:

Genesis 15:11 NLT
Some vultures swooped down to eat the carcasses, but Abram chased them away.

I enjoy Matthew Henry’s commentary on this verse:

“Abram, having prepared according to God’s appointment, now set himself to wait for the sign God might give him by these, like the prophet upon his watch-tower, Hab. 2:1. While God’s appearing to own his sacrifice was deferred, Abram continued waiting, and his expectations were raised by the delay; when the fowls came down upon the carcasses to prey upon them, as common and neglected things, Abram drove them away (v. 11), believing that the vision would, at the end, speak, and not lie. Note, A very watchful eye must be kept upon our spiritual sacrifices, that nothing be suffered to prey upon them and render them unfit for God’s acceptance. When vain thoughts, like these fowls, come down upon our sacrifices, we must drive them away, and not suffer them to lodge within us, but attend on God without distraction.“

There is something interesting about the bird of prey swooping in, but Abram driving them away — if these were live creatures and not a carcass,  we would see the acts of a shepherd. But these were dead, much like man dead in his sins — who must have a heavenly shepherd who brings a spiritual fire of life to promise and fulfill something wonderful and amazing.

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“But you promised me”

Readings:

Genesis 32

Genesis 33

Matthew 12

Proverbs 2

As Jacob is losing to God’s call for him to return to his father’s land,  and as he begins following in obedience,  he comes to a place where things look very bad. His brother who he has deceived is coming at him with an army of 400. soldiers.

How often when our life is interrupted by a message from the Lord, it looks like obeying the Lord God is going to be costly or dangerous or end badly for us!

But let’s look at how Jacob wrestles with his fear and doubt in this situation. He knows that he has wronged his brother,  so if something bad happens to him and his family at the hands of his brother — he might even understand that might be just discipline from the Lord to teach him a lesson about deceiving others. In fact, since he has been on a journey for about 20 years being deceived and cheated by his father in law, he might understand better how it was wrong how he treated his brother!

How many times have I faced pain and consequences for my own foolish actions that I had been able to delay or avoid by stating on my prodigal path? How many opportunities for reconciliation have I avoided fearfully?

Jacob wrestles with the Lord asking, But God you promised…” like a child reminding their parents of a trip to get a special dessert after dinner. I wonder how many times we misunderstand the promises of God because His ways are higher than our ways,  and His perspective is all of eternity and not just “this moment of discomfort”?

Genesis 32:11-12 NLT
O Lord, please rescue me from the hand of my brother, Esau. I am afraid that he is coming to attack me, along with my wives and children. But you promised me, ‘I will surely treat you kindly, and I will multiply your descendants until they become as numerous as the sands along the seashore—too many to count.’”

And Jacob doesn’t demonstrate great courage here. We can see how he tries to compartmentalize what is most important to him here,  in how he puts what he is most willing to be sacrificed “if necessary” out front:

Genesis 32:20-21 NLT
And be sure to say, ‘Look, your servant Jacob is right behind us.’” Jacob thought, “I will try to appease him by sending gifts ahead of me. When I see him in person, perhaps he will be friendly to me.” So the gifts were sent on ahead, while Jacob himself spent that night in the camp.

Isn’t this so true of how we too can try to bargain with God and wrestle with Him over the things that we hold most dear in our hearts?

And then we see that through the night,  this struggle against God that we see playing out (as he stays behind and sends everything and everyone ahead of him towards Esau’s) culminated in a wrestling match with this man where he would not give up on receiving the blessing.

Doesn’t this remind us of Jacob clinging to Esau’s heal at birth? His finding a way to cheat Esau out of the birthright with some soup? His refusing to give up on getting Rachel after being tricked?

How often does Jacob seek to “make it happen” by his own cunning and striving? And Jacob, now called Israel, will walk with a limp for the rest of his life, because instead of trusting God to do what He has promised — he is continuing to insist on trying to earn it, to capture it, to “do it on my own”.

How often do we foolishly try and do it or own way instead of surrendering to trust God’s perfect plan and purpose? How often do we bring on ourselves so much unnecessary pain and suffering?

This is what sin does to us — it robs us and hurts us and others because we’re trying to trade God’s way for our own. We might be led to consider “but what if Jacob did X instead of Y”. But no, this is who Jacob is in his flesh. And this is who we are in our flesh. Our flesh opposes God. Even mature Christian Paul (in Romans 7:7-25) speaks about how the law of God reveals to us the sin that is embedded in our flesh.

I wonder what we are “holding back” from trusting God with fully today?

But instead of just asking this to be shamed, it might be best that we ask it so that we can clearly see the sin in our flesh that is holding us back from God’s call and purpose. So that then we might call upon the name of Jesus, the great healer and physician to do supernatural surgery and remove this sin, this cancer, this thorn, this opposition that exists in our flesh still opposing God’s will. However,  even this, we might wrestle with God and ask Him to remove,  and we might learn to trust Him — and be satisfied that His plan is best.

2 Corinthians 12:8-10 NLT
Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

You see, Christianity isn’t about talking to God so that we can get our own way. It isn’t about learning to imitate God’s character so that we can strive harder to look holy and righteous to other people.

We are messengers called to trust God’s message and purpose to come through. Even when we are still making all of the mistakes we make, we point to God and say “He has done these wonderful things for me to bless me”.

Genesis 33:5 NLT
Then Esau looked at the women and children and asked, “Who are these people with you?” “These are the children God has graciously given to me, your servant,” Jacob replied.

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Servant, Chosen, Beloved *Your Name Here*

Readings:

Genesis 31

Matthew 12

Psalms 9

Matthew 12:18-21 NLT
“Look at my Servant, whom I have chosen. He is my Beloved, who pleases me. I will put my Spirit upon him, and he will proclaim justice to the nations. He will not fight or shout or raise his voice in public. He will not crush the weakest reed or put out a flickering candle. Finally he will cause justice to be victorious. And his name will be the hope of all the world.”

This passage in Matthew speaks to the prophecy in Isaiah about the Messiah, so to only make it about ourselves would not be a perfect application. We MUST realize that this is first and foremost about Jesus Christ, Jeshua Hamaschiach, our Lord and Savior. And only when this is clearly about Him, and when we realize that He walks with us,  and that the Holy Spirit lives in and through us — can we safely and humbly examine our life to see how our life is also the life of a chosen, beloved servant of the Lord.

What is it to be a servant of the Lord, to be chosen? To be beloved and pleasing to the Lord?

Be filled with the Spirit of the Lord.
Proclaim justice to the world, but not by fighting or shouting or raising our voice to be unable to ignore in public — but so gentle that we do not crush the brokenhearted or put out the flame of hope. Our lives will demonstrate that Christ is victorious and that their hopes for justice will be fulfilled.

Those who are truly servants and messengers of the One true God are not making a name for ourselves or putting ourselves on display — yet we do not hide the light we have been given either.

We do not cower or refuse to deliver this good news to the world and to the nations. He makes it so. Amen.

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What do I have to humbly repent of?

Readings:

Job 40

Job 41

Job 42

I love David Guzik’s simplifying Spurgeon’s sermon on this:

What did Job have to repent of? In his sermon, Job Among the Ashes, Charles Spurgeon suggested several things:

Job repented of the terrible curse he had pronounced upon the day of his birth.
Job repented of his desire to die.
Job repented of his complaints against and challenges to God.
Job repented of his despair.
Job repented that his statements had been a “darkening of wisdom by words without knowledge”; that he spoke beyond his knowledge and ability to know.


One might say that these words of Job — words of humble repentance and submission before God for sins that were greatly provoked, sins that come from the godly and not from the wicked — these words that contain no curse of God whatsoever — these words ended the contest between God and Satan and demonstrated that the victory belonged to God and to Job.

And David says this about God’s response to Job’s friends:

The friends of Job spoke many general principles that, in their setting, have great wisdom. The problem was that in Job’s circumstance, their principles of wisdom did not apply. They presented God as angry and judgmental against Job, when He was not. This displeased God…
God’s rebuke of Eliphaz, Bildad, and Zophar was at the same time an explicit vindication of Job. It was true that in his frustration, stubbornness, and misery Job said things that he had to repent of. Yet God could still say of him, “as My servant Job has,” putting forth Job as an example of one who spoke what is right.

It doesn’t just matter if the statement we pull from the Word of God is factually or quotably accurate — even Satan in His tempting Jesus quotes scripture, and even the religious leaders who Jesus condemns in Matthew 23.

It is not the knowing and quoting, but the proper application. In fact, improper application of the Word of God is more of a breach of the true heart of the third commandment (Exodus 20:7, Deut 5:11) than any use of vulgarity.

And this is why the convicting statements of James 3:11 are important to those who might think it their calling to proudly teach from their own wisdom (which is actually foolishness) instead of sitting at the feet of the One Teacher, being humbled, applying it by abiding in Spirit, and sharing crumbs for anyone who is also hungry.


It is Satan who attacks the weak and downtrodden and vulnerable in their compromised state with wrong application aimed at them like poisonous arrows (like we see with Job and even Jesus in the wilderness).

It is wrong application that has religious leaders wrongly accusing, trying and sending Jesus to the cross. It is wrong application that Satan has used since the beginning with Adam and Eve.

So it is so very high in importance that we who are Students of God are also Students WITH God. If we only know the Theology and the Apologetics, we can speak factually but not necessarily with accurate application. So we don’t just worship scripture. Because sola scripture without Christ, without Holy Spirit, without Father God’s touch upon us can be a weapon used against the hurting and the lost — instead of a welcoming lighthouse to keep their ships from crashing on the rocks.

Lord, guide my application and pronouncement of your Word and of what is wise. Help me to not aim things at others or to do harm, especially when I am hurting and may be tempted to lash out. But when I eventually fail, and I nip at those trying to help me (like a hurt puppy), help me to be quick to repent when corrected — and use this teachable moment for your glory and honor. Amen.

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Apples and Trees

Readings:

Genesis 29

Genesis 30

Matthew 11

Psalms 9

Isn’t it interesting how Jacob the deceiver becomes Jacob the deceived (when he is given Leah first instead of Rachel). And how Abraham’s sleeping with Sarah’s maid is multiplied in how Jacob ends up with two wives and both their maids.

I’m reminded that the example we set for our children is important for their lives. It seems that the enemy knows what temptations are most familiar and attractive to our family.

Watching TV with my daughter and wife recently,  I heard JJ and his father Groff  on “Outer Banks” laugh about “apples and trees” — alluding to that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. I’m reminded that “apples and trees” are a good reminder for all of us sinners since Adam.

What generational curses will be broken in us that our children will not suffer or which will be compounded?

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Little ant, why did you bite me?

Readings:

Job 35

Job 36

Job 37

Isn’t it wonderful how even once science can explain all of the molecular and chemical makeup of the world, and physics and mathematics can measure and calculate the forces and interactions, that there is so much beyond the reach of mere men to understand — let alone architect such a wonderful, complex, perfect and stunning design, build out, maintain it, etc.

What is an ant in the yard of a man that decides to bite the man’s foot? Will the man ask the ant why he has done this or simply crush the ant and move on to whatever he was doing (and never remember the ant again once any hint of the sting has left). In fact, the ant itself isn’t what is remembered, but the sting. And how much higher is God above man than man is above ant? Yet, He doesn’t just toss us or Job aside.

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Ah, Youth

Readings:

Job 32

Job 33

Job 34

Job 32:6-10 NLT
Elihu son of Barakel the Buzite said, “I am young and you are old, so I held back from telling you what I think. I thought, ‘Those who are older should speak, for wisdom comes with age.’ But there is a spirit within people, the breath of the Almighty within them, that makes them intelligent. Sometimes the elders are not wise. Sometimes the aged do not understand justice. So listen to me, and let me tell you what I think.

I’m reminded of the snowman from the stop motion Christmas classic “Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer” when he replied “Ah youth” after Rudolph’s friend Fireball talks eagerly about showing off in front of the does at the reindeer games.

I wonder how often in my youth,  I waited for the opportunity to prove my teachers wrong — to puff my chest and show off my intelligence — to have the “last word”.

It isn’t lost on me that Job had just before this described how people used to listen when he spoke,  and here this young one is coming right behind him expecting to speak last and leave everyone quiet.

Job 29:21-23 NLT
“Everyone listened to my advice. They were silent as they waited for me to speak. And after I spoke, they had nothing to add, for my counsel satisfied them. They longed for me to speak as people long for rain. They drank my words like a refreshing spring rain.

But in just a few chapters when this young Elihu finishes his rant,  we will see who has the last word. And it won’t be Elihu, or Job, or Job’s friends.  It will be who always has the final word in such things,  God.

Too often in life, I want to tell what I think. And even after plenty of correction and discipline from the Lord on this matter,  it can still prove to be a challenge. It doesn’t matter what I think; it matters what His Word says.

I’ll say that again

It doesn’t matter what I think; it matters what His Word says.