I truly enjoy time with the Lord in Spirit through prayer, reverence, faith, hope, worship, and revelation. It is in that place of first love of God, of appreciating Him upon the throne of my life as both Lord and savior that so much is made new and alive even in the midst of challenge, struggle, trial and opposition.

I am learning to trust in the Lord more in this way than I even rely on my own natural soul (psyche) or natural body (senses) — which can both deceive.

When I look at the above two dimensional drawing, I can see in my mind how it can logically be compared to the:

– Triune nature of God: Heavenly Father, Holy Spirit, and Son come in the Flesh

– Layout of the tabernacle: outer court, holy place, most holy place

– Layout of the temple: porch, outer sanctuary, holy of holies

– Man’s three in one being: spirit, natural soul, and physical body

I’m not going to stand here on this website soapbox and tell you that I have it all figured out and that “X is the right answer” and shun you for not agreeing with me. I have new things taught to me everyday, and I’ve come to understand that my own reasoning and understanding and imagination comes from my natural man and can easily be flawed. I don’t trust that part of me 100%, and neither should you — but we should test all such things by the Word of God.

Having said that, years ago, I started this website — not because I felt that I had something to “teach others”, but because as I started learning and being taught by my teacher through those spiritual gates as shown in the diagram above, I wanted to be transparent and open and accountable and correctable. This is still my purpose today.

At times, I have faced criticisms and opposition, and other times I have been warmly welcomed into readers hearts and considerations — and I appreciate both because God is being glorified in all of it.

I can see that it is God alone who is trustworthy and reliable in bringing the increase in something that He is doing, that He has ordained. Whether during times where my body and my natural were generating page after page of content — or during times where my body and my natural were showing much less evidence in output of additional content — He is producing consistently a growth and a change in me, and seemingly a growth in outreach through the site. We have averaged a growth of 30 percent per year during the 5 year history of the site. And that has been with no marketing efforts, no boosting of posts for visibility — just sharing my journey as transparently as possible as a Student of the Word of God.

I know that some are destined to be teachers, but I am a student. I trust in the communion that I experience through the Holy Spirit and what my teacher teaches me one on one in that special place so inadequately illustrated in the middle of that diagram at the beginning of this post. And in sharing, I don’t want to be your teacher, but I want you to come to know THE TEACHER, personally, spiritually, consciously, and physically as an undeniable presence in your life.

Do you know “about Him” or do you know Him?

Do you “read about Him” or do you “spend time with Him in that Holy place”?

I encourage you — even if the wicked hate you for it — and even if the religious hate you even more for it (because they both will at times if you are doing it right) — seek Him first. Trust Him. He will do amazing things — in spite of your shortcomings and failures.

Don’t settle for being a well polished tomb of a dying body carrying around a natural soul that is starved from any spiritual nourishment or life because there is no real connection to the life giving source through the glory of God — come alive in Christ Jesus and spend time with God. And share this amazing truth with others as well.

God bless you and yours in this New Year!